Something in the air made her feel faint. She could feel it when things were off, when the humidity in the air was slightly off balance. Or was it just her? She thought that she used to feel the magic behind events, like the earth and her were in perfect tune. Lately she just thought she was crazy.
What happened to the naive nature in her that believed a higher purpose would preoccupy her and cater for her as well as care for her entirely in every way.
Yet a hunger! Yes, an exclamation, because why? Why and where was this hunger coming from? Insatiable in it’s own sense. Or could it simply be credited to the human nature.A burning need for self actualization in every sense that if pursued to its entirety, ends in dissatisfaction or death.
So why bother, why fight, why wake up and why stay sane? What is the point of order, what is the point of pain? Why is personality such a variable and why is common sense never really common?
Then she read this:
“Just because I liked something at one point in time doesn’t mean I’ll always like it, or that I have to go on liking it at all points in time as an unthinking act of loyalty to who I am as a person, based solely on who I was as a person.
To be loyal to myself is to allow myself to grow and change, and challenge who I am and what I think. The only thing I am for sure is unsure, and this means I’m growing, and not stagnant or shrinking.”
On that note, take heart my ‘mumblets&grumblets’, everytime you think ‘why?’, know that someone else is thinking ‘why not?’.
Don’t be the only one chilling in the ‘Y’
Peace Out !